What Even is Writing?
I like the idea of blogging, sharing your inner thoughts (although generally not innermost) with an audience consisting of something between 0 and 7,000,000,000 people. But holy hell does it prey on your anxieties and insecurities.
Throughout the years my reading of articles and blogs and thinkpieces on the internet has gotten through several dozen different instances of an author confessing about his or her hypercritical inner voices. I've personally wondered if those sorts of tendencies are almost necessary for becoming a writer of any substance. While I am not sure I honestly believe that being hypercritical of yourself is necessary, I do think that having that trait is the rule rather than the exception.
Just the number of blog posts I have thoroughly absorbed which discuss suicidal depressive tendencies led me to that conclusion. I try to ruminate on something like that, because I believe that depression is a complex state of mind which requires nuance to weave into a functioning mindset instead of just a mental block. Thus, I prefer to give discussions on the matter the same preferential treatment. It is not the only issue I treat this way, but it may be the most universal.
All of this to pose a question or two, essentially to myself: Do I seek an audience for this blog and hope the sense of responsibility pushes me towards productivity? Do I strongly pretend that I have an audience and hope for the same? Do I just treat this activity as a general outlet and not worry about productivity?
I think I may be leaning towards the last of those three options. Although if you read this blog assuming that the first two approaches, which both involve me speaking to an audience besides myself, are moot... well then my writing style will sound positively insane. Oh lord, the fact that I am even considering this is rather paradoxical. I'll just stop here.
See you later.
Throughout the years my reading of articles and blogs and thinkpieces on the internet has gotten through several dozen different instances of an author confessing about his or her hypercritical inner voices. I've personally wondered if those sorts of tendencies are almost necessary for becoming a writer of any substance. While I am not sure I honestly believe that being hypercritical of yourself is necessary, I do think that having that trait is the rule rather than the exception.
Just the number of blog posts I have thoroughly absorbed which discuss suicidal depressive tendencies led me to that conclusion. I try to ruminate on something like that, because I believe that depression is a complex state of mind which requires nuance to weave into a functioning mindset instead of just a mental block. Thus, I prefer to give discussions on the matter the same preferential treatment. It is not the only issue I treat this way, but it may be the most universal.
All of this to pose a question or two, essentially to myself: Do I seek an audience for this blog and hope the sense of responsibility pushes me towards productivity? Do I strongly pretend that I have an audience and hope for the same? Do I just treat this activity as a general outlet and not worry about productivity?
I think I may be leaning towards the last of those three options. Although if you read this blog assuming that the first two approaches, which both involve me speaking to an audience besides myself, are moot... well then my writing style will sound positively insane. Oh lord, the fact that I am even considering this is rather paradoxical. I'll just stop here.
See you later.
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